Confused and still demoralised

Linden had asked me to hang fire until she had spoken to Lewis before jacking in the course.

So in very muted form, I attended class today.  Linden had obviously spoken to Lewis, as he was trying to find out our views on the course, while being very nurturing of us.

In Lewis's class we had a long debate about practice based (outcome is apparent in work activity or object produced) -v- practice led (outcome is practical but leads to explanation in writing) research.  Another debate about qualitative and quantitative methods - Gareth phrased it as defined the experiments, tested, decided, evaluated outcomes, images of tests.  Feedback forms handed out, for anonymous(!) response.

By next week we are expected to have:

- Characterised what I am doing, in about 100 words.
- Updated project proposal
   What sort of project is it?  Experimental/Tests/???
   Append the previous materials to final report

- Introduce your Final Project Report with clarity.  Use the present tense.
- Refocus the questions
- Indicate how too many questions in the original proposal were useful
- Show what was useful about the contextual report

- Revisit and refine/tighten the aims
- Have my methods changed?
- Sum up methods
- Indicate ways of using module activities (I can't even remember most of them!)

- Renegotiate project with supervisor
- Negotiate a work programme.

Then I had a tutorial with Linden.  She understands that I am not bothered about the numerical measurement of marking, but I am really upset that I am not grasping the learning on which we are being assessed.

She said my Developing Project Report did not reflect the thinking that had taken place: pushing boundaries; honesty; silhouette; samplers; cross stitch; empirical research.  It was unclear as I had not presented my method as the basis for stitch work.  I need to articulate my own position. (Not sure what this means).

How can your position be presented;
How is it characterised; who do you think does related work (Andrea Deszo, Tilleke Schwartz); or is there no-one exactly in your field (I'm not aware of anyone doing gender and value in stitch);
How is this position articulated through your work;
How can you use your position to develop your studio work and develop articulation of studio work; How to articulate values in your work (Kohlberg and Gilligan);
What alternate theories are there (I think Kohlberg and Gilligan both miss the point, gender values are broader and more diverse than they identify);
How is the framing of value systems relevant to depicting women's values through thread work.

So now I have a good list of questions on which to base my upcoming thinking.  At this stage I'm not at all sure about basic things, such as what is 'my position'. But I think the framing of value systems is critical to it.  How do men and women view women's values - I think each frame position gives a completely different answer.

I need to get on and answer the questions.